You know I come here everyday I read some blogs.. Then I step back and have to realize that this is not my reality.. My so called life is my reality.
My kids and grand-kids my husband my dogs..
my grief. And that I know is real. Why did God make us so unhuman to feel all the things that we feel walking the path in life.
Why did he pick Pioneer to create this place that we can come and put our thoughts to cyber paper??
Why does this place we call our sanity well why does it exsist?
I am having a really hard time grieving for my dad. I am wondering what is life going to hand me next. My mom isn't that well but yet again she may live to be 100 who knows..
I guess what I am trying to say is that I am done here at least that is how I feel for right now anyways. Like alot of others here I believe that my time has come to say goodbye...
At least for this moment..
I will do my interview Bookworm.. You just send me the ?'s you got my email address.Thansk to all the people here that I have made friends with and to all those whom have become my worst nightmare.
have fun be nice and I may be back when the healing has begun you never know.
Gloria

SO how long does it take to get use to the fact that my dad is no longer with us. I mean I know that he died and everything. But I feel aquward when I go to things like family functions.
Like the one we had tonight at my oldest daughters place. We were all there but him .
I mean I will never forget him there hasn't been a day go buy that I do not think of him..HEll each night before I got to bed I go outside for a couple of smokes and sit there and bawl my eyes out..ANd ask God to please let me dream of him.. BUt so far he has not answered that prayer..

But on a tad brighter note sons G/f is helping a bit more..Pays to plant some complaining in a friends ear now don't it.
My dr Daughter is here and she looks like she is glowing she is 22 weeks pregnant and she and the baby are both extremley healthy.. ANd thats the important thing eh??
Its going to be a boy..He will be called MArcus James (JAmes) is after my dad..

Now getting back to the family dinner I felt so not wanting to be there. I ate Fast and left.
I just can't yet.. I hope that everyone understands and if they don't they can take a ffleap ...
Well tahts all for me tonight yous all stay safe out there..
Gloria

Do you ever feel like you are hitting your head against the wall??
Well that is how I have been feeling lately.
the start of the yr was not a good one as my dad passed away.It has been 3 months yesterday since he died.
I miss him with all my heart and soul.He would have known exactly what to say to me in my grief.You know that any man can be a father but it takes someone special to be a dad... And he was MY dad!!!!!!!!
Its getting easier for me a little now. I mean I still miss him and all but life does go on...
Its starting to thaw here but there is still alot of SNow in the ditches ect.But none on the roads...It has been raining alot and the water levels in the creeks and streams are far beyond normal SPring thaw levels so they are watching them closely.
But with fingers crossed and alot of praying we have NO water in our basement.


My daughter and her husband and their 2 dogs are coming down this week end and staying for 1 week.It will be nice to her them again.THey live in North Bay,ON its about a 6 hour drive from here to get there.SHe is now 6 months Pregnant..ANd is still interning as a first yr in NOrth BAy.
I am so proud of her actually I am proud of all of my children.And I tell them often enough so that it doesn't go to their heads and make them swell. They know how I am... Things are a little quieter here on the Russian Front with my son and his G/F.
She actually helped to clean thehouse for when Tammy comes this weekend.And she has been helping alot more but for how long time will tell.
Maybe it has something to do with the fact that all I have been serving for supper is ground chuck maybe she finally got the hint. You help more you get better food
So for now all is good And life still sucks but I am handling it..Thats all one can ask for you know....
I think I got my mom talked into getting a computer she has always wanted to learn to typw and play the piano.. I am hoping that there is software out there for that.I would like her to have her dream of being able to do both of those things.BEfore she passes.
Well thats all I got tonight. You all stay warm or cool which ever the case may be.And above all Stay SAFE!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for stopping by and reading about my life..
Good night
Gloria

This is what it looks like from the top of the hill here on this fine spring day. THis is overlooking the East beach here...


Needless to say it was a good day after all..

Notice the closest Pier that is where I go fishing from. the one farthest away is where the Fog horn use to be and to get to that one you got to get there by boat or be a really good at rock climbing.As it has about 1/2 mile of rock that is about 5-6 feet high to get to it.. But it is the best FISHING hole on Lake Erie..

Gloria

Today 1 Year ago my father in law Cliff (KEN) passed away.
I miss him dearly and the thing I miss most about him was his sick sense of humour....He got to pull one last joke last April Fools day and that was he died.To me that was not a joke.In the Picture below you can see how sick he was he is very bloated in this picture.As he was only a mere man of about 150 lbs. WHen he died he weighed over 250 lbs. That is what his sickness did to him..He Dies April 1,2007 at 10:38 am.. I miss you Ken.....


SO remember today when you are playing your jokes not all of us are in the MOOD!!!!!!!
Gloria